I have been on Zyprexa for 4 weeks.

The results have exceeded my expectations.

I have not been without episodes, but the nature of the episodes has changed. I was warned about side effects and this worried me. The truth is the side effects have been minor. The most obvious effect has been the constant dry mouth and a early morning mouth most of the day. An increase in drinking water has been both good for me and has largely dealt with the problem. An effect that has seemed more pronounced over the last week has been extreme tiredness. This has impacted on my work, and has been a little worrying. I find I struggle to stay awake and need to lie down. If I do, I will sleep solidly for 2 hours or more. I am getting 6-7 hours sleep at night - so I am not suffering from lack of sleep.

In consultation with my doctor I have decided to take my meds at night, rather than in the morning and will see if this helps things. The episodes have been pretty minor and Michelle has usually managed to talk me down. I find that small things can still be blown out of proportion and I take massive offense for minor actions from others. But again - this has not been very pronounced and overall I have been in a very good place, very positive and motivated and able to see things clearly and in perspective. My work has been good, with high levels of concentration and the ability to "soldier on".

With the episodes Michelle says I usually start slurring words and speak in a drunken manner - no idea why! On this note - I have totally abstained from all alcohol and I unfortunately am coming terms with the fact that this will probably be the way forward. I used to love a glass of wine with meals - but I cannot take the chance of an episode or unpredictable behavior because of the medication.

We have been in constant prayer during this time and I am concentrating on Christ's message to love in all situations. There is no greater freedom than to meet any perceived wrong doing in others with love. This frees one from self righteousness and anger - and through God's grace this is possible